Rebel towards life.

The feeling when you come back home after a sapping day and you realise how lonely you are, because you have nobody.

The feeling when you know that all you have at this point is yourself, because you have nobody.

The feeling when you can’t do anything but just accompany your soul by your thoughts, because you have nobody.

The feeling when you had a tough day and you need somebody to listen to your rants about how perturbed you are, because you have nobody.

The feeling when you need a shoulder  to cry and a tight hug and a moment of affection, but you have nobody.

And after feeling all these emotions when you finally stand ceaseless, that is the moment of truth, the moment when you realise no matter who stays and who leaves, if you can control your emotions and hold your feelings, nobody can ever break you because my friend you are a REBEL – A rebel towards life.

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Since i belong to a family where i’ve seen my dad travelling now and then due to his journalism profession, i was kind of or probably very beguiled by the idea of travelling. 

I would preferably find my career in travelling rather than being in some ho-hum kind of a corporate job, where you have to complete your 9 to 5 shift every freaking day and still strive for promotion. Actually, i desire to travel every nook and corner of the world but i still have a long way to go, as so i believe in this wise old saying ” A dream doesn’t become reality through magic, it takes sweat determination and hard work” so definitely i’ll have to work towards it completely.

How happy i was, oh! And the one in green is my sister.

I was fortunate enough to get a chance to experience the beauty and serenity of one of the most beautiful hill stations in India, Manali. It is amidst the mountains with  captivating views, the enthralling beas river, the abiding redolence of the pines and every little thing that could make you feel in heaven. I have this affinity for places like this. I was there with my family and some of my closest cousins, so the trip just became merrier. 

The evenings in Manali were like none others, it was a totally different feeling, a good one though infact the happiest one. The streets of manali, the cute little eateries, everything was so good. The most ecstatic moment was when i sat on the banks of the beas river, the sound of the gushing waters of the river, the fog surrounding the area and the amazing picturesque made me feel like i was dreaming, a dream i would never want to wake up from. 

BE YOU..

I’m Ambika Srivastava,19 years old, not through with my graduation yet, trying to study hard to fulfill my not so consequential dreams. This is my very first blog. Honestly speaking i have no idea how a blog has to be written but ‘it is never too late to start’, so i’m trying my hands on writing. Have you ever had this feeling of being completely vulnerable? As if things were never in your favour nor would they ever be, just totally broken and crestfallen. I’ll tell you, though i haven’t been through so much, maybe many of you have had such phases which might have ripped you apart, but i was a person who was a total fusspot and completely nebbish and i have outgrown so many unimportant things in my life. All those people who have had bad experiences, or lost somebody very close to their heart, have had roughest times of their lives, let me tell you you are strong, stronger than the most of us and can surmount anything in life be it your fears, your hard times or anything. I was a  person who believed in fairytale ideas and somewhere i still do and i’m very sure most of you do, but how sure are you about them being fulfilled? I loved the idea of falling in love and somehow i did fall in love with a person who could never love me back, a treacherous kind he was, all that while he gave me hopes of being loved back and cheated on me but never did my hopes got light and the saddest part is to know that you will never be loved by the person you love. But it’s okay you know, you cannot force somebody to love you back. But trust me behind all this bad that happened to me was a good part, now i have a better person in my life who is proud to be with me, as i was always conscious about every inch and tone of mine he made be realise how beautiful i was, he not only accepted my flaws but started loving them too, he made me love myself first and him later,it’so good to know how one person can make such a huge difference in your entire life. Find a person who loves your soul and everything about you not just your body. Surround yourself with positive people and let go the negative ones. Accept critisms and surmount them in a positive manner. Love yourself first and believe me you’ll start seeing things with a totally different perspective yet a happy one.